I celebrated a birthday yesterday. Actually I celebrated a birthday for 5 days {something I highly recommend doing- why just 1 day?!} And I have to say that I was feeling mixed about this one, about the number and whether or not to share anything about it online. You could say I was having a bit of a 24 hr. crisis when it comes to some of what the number 40 'means' as well as what using social media means to me these days. And then you realize how nice it is to be able to wish someone a happy birthday especially when they let you know, that there's also nothing you can do to change your birth year, and you get on with your day :)
I guess this is also the age where you either start lying about how many numbers you are or you embrace it. Inspired by mom I've opted for the latter.
Once I got over my mini crisis I remembered how lucky I am, especially to have been here for 40 years, how I've never felt better, both physically and emotionally, how I finally feel like I'm getting this life thing down; how I want to live it, how I want to be, who I want to share it with. I feel younger than I did in my twenties {is that possible?!} I know who I am now. And on the days when I lose sight of that temporarily I know how to find my way back quicker than ever. All I want to do is take this knowledge and as often as I can show up living and appreciating every hour of every day, to the fullest. I want to love life, me and everyone more. I want to have more FUN! I want to create less struggle and more ease. And I absolutely want to keep making art!
All in all a pretty good place to be. hello 40. I welcome you now.
